Inside This Idle MInd

the crime wasn't mine [believe me]

2007-09-03T04:23:00.000-07:00

I'm dying..
please, please, please
Forgive me..
Yeah i admit my mistake.

And sorry for that!
It's just a small thing.
That's not a big deal!
Then what's your problem?

I will soon forget you name
Don't worry.,
You will soon realize that you need this kid!
I'll wait for that time.

Pathetic eh?
If I could only turn back time
I'll turn it back to the time that we first met.
Then? I guess nothing will happen.

Ah! Don't mind this post.,
There's nothing about this
I just hate him and her
harhar

If you don't want me,
Don't ignore me.
You don't want me there
You just shut me out
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
If you had your way
You just shut me up
Make me go away

so-so

anything but ordinary- avril lavigne

2007-08-30T04:07:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
accident, turibulent succulent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh my self to sleep
It's my lullaby

Is it enough?
Is it enough?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

Is it enough?
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
oh
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

hate her for no good reason

2007-08-28T06:06:00.000-07:00

Hey! I'm bored.,
Now if you can't say something good, please shut your mouth?
Try to be more sensitive eh?
O-K-A-Y-?

Inside this shattered heart of mine,
you still remain
your memory
It haunts my pleasant days.

I want to scream and shriek out loud.
will you die wit me?
I'm drowning with my own blood and tears.
Nothing is rhyming this time.

Freedom

2007-08-28T05:01:00.000-07:00

This poem is about 3 years ago.. written by me last July 07, 2004

There's no one around me.
I'm all alone.
Should i stay or should i go?
Whatever

My mind will blast without that freaking bomb!
I saw him knocking on my door,
but the door is locked!
How can i open that stupid door?

Maybe you should help me how.
I know! I'll go get that hammer and smash that door
Before he get tired of waiting for me to open tha door.
But, where's the hammer???

Nooooooo!!!
He's gone..
Forever gone.
Maybe i should wait for another score for him to come back!

buong araw sa isip ko

2007-08-28T04:50:00.000-07:00

Kasabay ng liwanag ng araw at pagdilat ng aking mga mata
Sa lamig ng paligid ikaw ang nasa isip
Damdamin na pilit hinahanapang ng paliwanag
Sa mundong puno ng kalituhan

Sa katanghaliang tapat ng damdaming naglalayag
Kasabay ng malakas na hanging umiihip di ka maalis sa aking isip
Sa bawat sulok ng mundo kong parisukat
Tanging larawan mo ang pinapangarap

Ngayon ang araw ay unti-unti ng lumulubog
Sa aking pag-iisa yakap ko ay unan
At tanging alaala mo sa dilim ng gabi
Ngunit sa pag gising tulad ng liwanag ng araw ikaw ay muling sisilay

this poem is about three years ago..

oh! avril lavigne's nice

2007-08-28T04:42:00.000-07:00

Good evening.
it's been a long time since my last post!
I have many reasons why and too many excuses.
i missed this so much. (really?)

and oh!
i just realized that it's fun listening to Avril lavigne's music eh?
i idolized her for so many years.
till now, i still like her (a bit)

i wish to buy her 2nd album i guess.
not the best damn things eh..
but the 2nd titled: under my skin.
that's very cool i guess.

well., enough about this post!

we almost made it

2007-06-23T18:51:00.000-07:00

this is my first post..

i'm so disappointed of what happened to me last thursday and friday
me and my sis. were able to go to megamall..
we asked permission a week before the said date..
yeah when he said: 'hindi pa'ko sure'
ok then.. i'll wait for the final decision.

then after that, we were so excited
yeah it's the second time to meet our favorite band yet we were so excited like the first time we met them..
we made plans, and exciting DREAMS!
yes dreams..

THURSDAY:

thursday evening, i asked his permission again..
woaahh! guess what?..
he said.. we're not allowed to go to..
i'm so sad,frustrated, and disappointed..

wow.. i expect a lot..
i guess it would not hurt me that much if he told me about that earlier..
well i guess it's also my fault., i should've expect that much
i can't get over it.., till now...

i can't get over it.. yes.. i can't
after that.., i cried a lot. because of depression and frustration
aww.. LAME EXCUSES!
i want to meet them up close and personal..

oohh.. maybe it's not the right time..
there will be a time..
i've learned my lessons..
i shouldn't expect that much ever again!

never..
my frustration kills me now...

mao